Going Back To My "EMO" Days :))

So here are all the poems/tula I made back in highschool. I found all of these in my old blogspot. I can't help but laugh after reading each of them because it's SO EMO! Tapos yung choice of words ko pa.. Haha! Yuck ang emo ko dati. HAHAHAHA! :))

The Delusion Stroll

I was walking alone
In a windy hours of darkness
The breeze makes me chill
I have no idea where to go
Then I suddenly felt the emptiness in my heart
My mind was puzzled
Then I remembered you
I felt the loneliness within myself
That I want you to fill up
I crave for your presence
I want to see your face
I'd like to hear your voice
I want you to walk with me
Walk with me,
And make me feel the bliss inside my heart
But then again,
I'm just all by myself
Dreaming that you would walk with me forever

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Malabong Lugar

Dahan dahang nagiiba
Palayo ng palayo ang nararating
Nais ko sana'y bumalik
Ngunit ako'y nahihirapan nang umalis

Tama ba ang aking pinasukan?
O ako'y nagkamali nanaman?
Ako ba'y pababalikin ulit?
Sa lugar kung saan ako'y magsisimulang muli

Naliligaw na nga ba ako?
Sa isang lugar na `di sinasadyang dinala ako
Nararapat ba ako rito?
O sinasayang ko lang ang oras ko dito?

Kailangan na bang umalis ng maaga?
Kailangan na bang putulin ang paglalakad?
Kailangan ko na nga bang bumalik?
At umalis dito sa lugar na walang katiyakan.

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Iwas

Muli nanamang gumising
Sa isang umagang napakalamig
Ilang araw na itong nauulit
Ngunit isa lamang ang hinahanap-hanap lagi

Init ng iyong kamay ay nais kong maramdaman
Sarap ng iyong yakap kailan kaya matitikman?
Sa bawat umagang sumasalubong
Tanging pangalan mo lamang ang ibinubulong

Hindi sigurado sa nararamdaman
Ngunit siguradong ako'y naguguluhan
Naguguluhan nga ba sa nararamdaman?
O sadyang pinagugulo lamang dahil iniiwasan?

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O diba? Lalaban ka pa sa pagka-EMO ko dati? Hahahaha! Uso ata EMO dati kaya ayan yung epekto saken. HAHAHAHA :)) But I somehow wish that I still have some passion left for writing poems. Feeling ko nabawasan creativity ko kasi hindi na ko makagawa ngayon ng ganyan. :| Maybe kung pipilitin kaya. Pero panget kapag ganun. I really want it back...

PACMAN FEVER!

MANNY PACQUIAO IS INCREDIBLE! TRULY ONE OF A KIND. NAPAKAGALING! SALUDO AKO! STANDING OVATION! :)

Inspiration?

I was reading my old blogspot and found this short poem I made back in highschool.

Trepidation

Confusions behind her smiles
Laughing to hide her tears
Uneasy about the vies,
Between her heart and endless fears

Sentiments are hidden
But her eyes reveal this all.
She’s trying to ease the burden,
That only makes her want to fall

Forgetting is her choice
Risking is too rare
Pretending is her voice,
For emotions that she can’t bare

Damn! Where did I get those words? I can still remember that I really considered writing poems as one of my "outlets" before. But what's wrong with me now? Bakit hindi ko na yun nagagawa? Am I that inspired before? If I am.. what happened? Am I less inspired now? Sana hindi. Pero kung oo.. Lord! PLEASE GIVE IT BACK TO ME!!!!! :))

Broken Strings

I'm in love with the song "Broken Strings" by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado. But I can't relate to the song. Wala lang gusto ko lang siya. I simply love it! I love singing it! Hahaha! Super nagagandahan ako sa lyrics eh. I don't know why though. Sad song naman tapos pag pinapakinggan ko parang naffeel ko lang yung pain. HAHAHA! Anyway, I posted the audio and lyrics below and emphasized the lines I love. I want you to feel (or at least understand me) the same way I feel everytime I hear the song. Hahaha! :))

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James Morrison
Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me now I can’t feel anything

When I love you
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking it’s the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all ok

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie’s worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Nelly Furtado
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Duet : James Morrison and Nelly Furtado
Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When it’s too late (too late)

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it’s not enough
To make it all ok

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lie’s worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late (too late)

You can’t play our broken strings
You can’t feel anything
That your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can’t like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before .. yeah

Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last change to feel again